A Spiritually Enlightening Online Magazine. March's Theme: "Impermanence"
Volume 6 Issue 3 ISSN# 1708-3265
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Walk Your Talk
with Aleesha Stephenson
It feels odd, writing my column again. The last time I did this my Mom was alive and ready to edit it for me. Now I'm on my own. Well not really as I have the most wonderful staff who are here to assist me
When my Mom died - at first I felt like she left me. That I would never feel the touch of her hands again. The sound of her voice would fade with time and I would be left with little bits of memories and nothing else. What I didn't expect was the gifts which were waiting for this very moment!
For those of you who read my blog, you already know that I try to spend time in meditation every day. Some time ago (as I don't remember when I learned of this) Grandmother (one of my Ancestor Guides) told me that she was my Mom in Spirit form. I didn't recall this until she reminded me again after Mom's passing. In that moment the memory came flooding back to me.
I've always known Grandmother was my foster mother in another life. I was an eskimo boy who's parents had died and she took me in. Coddling me and keeping me safe a little too safe in fact. I never learned how to fish or hunt because she didn't want me to participate with the other boys in the fear that something would happen to me. When I think about this it makes me laugh because Mom was the total opposite in this life. She was - once again not my biological mother but instead my soul-Mom but the difference this time around is she was always suggesting that I do things out of my comfort zone.
She thought starting my own magazine was a magnificent idea. I was terrified. She thought I should teach. I found it daunting. She told me I could write the Pathway Series for Magi's Magick Spells. I doubted her and then proved her right. She wanted me to speak publicaly - I managed to not achieve this one in her lifetime and I'd hoped to continue dodging this one although it seems I am set up to be interviewed on Revvell's show this year - so perhaps I won't be dodging it after all. *laughing*
She was always telling me that I could achieve absolutely anything. She was so proud of me. I've received so many emails from people who loved her telling me how proud she was of me. How she always spoke of me with such love and pride it warms my heart to know my Mom felt like that about me. I was equally proud of her and I believe I loved her completely. I can't imagine how our relationship could have been deeper and more real except for me to have been birthed from her. Ah but that would have changed things for us. I am happy to have all my experiences in this life and I feel so blessed that she chose me as her daughter and that I chose her to be my Mom. I would not have changed anything not one thing.
I feel the impermanence of my life with all the changes that have taken place over the years. I love every one of them. From the painful to the peace-filled. I love them equally. Each one brought me one step further on my path and assisted me to become the woman I am today. And I like the woman I am today. Of course there's little things I'd like to change about myself but all in all I'm very pleased with who I am and I'm sitting here like a child on Christmas morning, eagerly awaiting the next step on my path. What will it be? Who will I be when I've taken it? How will it change me?
My first Grandbabe is due in June. I spend a lot of time with this little one. We sit in meditation together almost daily. Wrapped in robes of a dark brown cloth with a lighter cotton underneath - we sit on our mats and release our minds. Sometimes my Grandbabe asks me questions which I try to answer as best I can and other times we just sit in silence holding hands. Our bond is growing daily and my love for this babe is infinite. I've never had such a deep connection with a babe which was not growing within my own body. This is such a unique experience and another impermanent one.
It is the changes which shape us. The plateaus simply give us time to integrate the changes within. But it is the changes which really make us who we are. So embrace them - know they are making you MORE. Let's all embrace our more-ness.
Aleesha Stephenson is the Publisher, Editor, Graphic and Web Designer as well as a Regular Columnist for Timeless Spirit Magazine.
A Raw-Vegan, Reiki Master Teacher, who lives her Buddhist, Shamanic, with many eclectic Pagan beliefs, she home-schools two of her three spiritually enlightened children as her eldest has graduated and moved on to the school of life. Friend (and mother) to them all, she is also a life-partner to her husband David. Her life truly is filled with light. Author of the "Pathways Series," a series of workbooks created for 28 consecutive nights of spellwork for Magi's Magick Spells. Aleesha teaches classes in Tarot, Meditation and Reiki. She is also a Raw Food and Fasting Coach. For more information, please contact Aleesha via email, visit her personal web page or her blog - Aleesha' Raw Life.
A Raw-Vegan, Reiki Master Teacher, who lives her Buddhist, Shamanic, with many eclectic Pagan beliefs, she home-schools two of her three spiritually enlightened children as her eldest has graduated and moved on to the school of life. Friend (and mother) to them all, she is also a life-partner to her husband David. Her life truly is filled with light.
Author of the "Pathways Series," a series of workbooks created for 28 consecutive nights of spellwork for Magi's Magick Spells. Aleesha teaches classes in Tarot, Meditation and Reiki. She is also a Raw Food and Fasting Coach. For more information, please contact Aleesha via email, visit her personal web page or her blog - Aleesha' Raw Life.
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